Truth - the quality or state of being true

100 Truths!

1. Last beverage - Water, lol, I'm so boring.
2. Last phone call - My dad.
 4. Last song you listened to - Hungry Like The Wolfs - Duran Duran
5. Last time you cried -don't remember, a few days ago?
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice - no.
7. Been cheated on? - not that i know about
8. Kissed someone & regretted it ? - never kissed anyone.
9. Lost someone special? - yes,
10. Been depressed? -yes
11. Been high? - living young & wild & free without drugs or alcohol , so that's a no
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Twilight Magenta
13. Blushing Red
14. Black Satin & Hot Pink (I know it said three but I couldn't choose!)
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Have you made new friends - yes! (:
16. Fallen out of love - No.
17. Laughed until you cried -  countless times.
18. Met someone who changed you - I don't believe so.
19. Found out who your true friends were -oh yeah.
20. Found out someone was talking about you - mhm.
TRUTH:
23. How many kids do you want to have - two ( if i decide to have kids)
24. Do you have any pets - no :(
25. Do you want to change your name - well, sort of.
26. What did you do for your last birthday - Invited all the girls over and ate a lot of food and played a lot of  games and did a shit ton of random stuff and just had fun!
27. What time did you wake up today - 9:30ish ?
28. What were you doing at midnight last night -Watching Shane Dawson videos on my apple tv. (:
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for - summersummersummersummer.
30. Last time you saw your father - like, two minutes ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life - the fact that i can't see without glasses or contacts. or my nose. it's too big.
32. What are you listening to right now - the hum of my laptop.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom  - I dunno.
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now? - novel study/
36. Whats your real name -it's a secret.
37. Relationship Status - lone wolf. (haha, i've been watching too much mamma mia.)
38. Zodiac sign - Aries.
39. Male or female - female !
40. Elementary School -not saying.
41. Middle School - not saying!
43. Hair color - very dark chestnut.
44. Long or short - long
45. Height - 5'2
46. Do you have a crush on someone - yeaahhh,
47. What do you like about yourself - my eyes and most times my hair
48. Piercings - ears.
49. Tattoos - i wish.
50. Righty or lefty - righty.
FIRSTS :
51. First surgery: nothing yet, but it's going to be jaw.
52. First piercing  - ears.
53. First tattoo - nothing..... YET!
54.First bestfriend-Yasmin Blenks
55. First Sport - I really don't remember, soccer?
56. First pet - fishy.
57. First vacation - uhm, here i think, because i didn't use to live here.
58. First concert - I don't even know !
59. First crush - UGH ! I'm so not saying, it's embarrassing !
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating -  nothing.
62. Drinking - nothing.
63. I’m about to - eat supper, BBQ! (:
64. Listening to - the hum of my laptop, didn't i already say that ?
65. Waiting for - whatever happens next.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OTHER SEX?
69. Lips or eyes - eyessss ! (Unless it's Steven Tyler ! :)
70. Hugs or kisses - hugs, 'cause i don't know what kisses feel like.
71. Shorter or taller - talller.
72. Older or Younger - don't matter.
73. Romantic or spontaneous - both.
74. Nice stomach or nice arms - abs! duhh !
75. Tattoos or piercings - depends what and where.
76. Sensitive or loud - both !
77. Hook-up or relationship - relationship obv.
 78. Trouble maker or hesitant - both. :)
HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger - no waay.
80. Drank hard liquor - ewww.
81. Lost glasses/contacts - haha, yes !
82. Cried in front on someone - mhm. /
83. Broken someone’s heart - I hope not,:S
84. Had your own heart broken - yeah, i guess,/
85. Been arrested - oh totally, :P haha, no.
86. Turned someone down - uh, yes,
87. Cried when someone died - yup.
88. Liked a friend that is a girl - lol, don't swing that way.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself - sometimes.
90. Miracles - yes.
91. Love at first sight - no
92. Heaven - not sure, i don't think i do.
93. Santa Clause - no. :(
94. Kissing on the first date- depends.
95. Angels - kinda
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now - yes.
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time - never !
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever - yes.
99. what is something you cannot live without? Music.
100. Posting this as 100 Truths- naah, i'm too cool.

 *Just a note to say that any names I've used in any of my blog posts are not real. The people are real and once I come up with an alias for that person, if I mention them again in one of my blog posts, it'll be under the same alias.
This does not include when I talk about Celebrities or Book Characters.

IMPORTANT

Just a note to say that any names I've used in any of my blog posts are not real. The people are real and once I come up with an alias for that person, if I mention them again in one of my blog posts, it'll be under the same alias.

This does not include when I talk about Celebrities or Book Characters.

Shrinking Violet

There are three S's we have to balance as teenagers. School, Social Life, &, Sleep. What sucks is it's nearly impossible to get all three. I myself, have given up sleep, well, I still sleep, just not as much as I should be. I'm constantly tired, which is so much fun (sarcasm). When I was little, all I wanted was to be a teenager. They were so cool, so foreign and wonderful. Now I'm here, and I want to go back, my life is messed up and crazy. But, that's just how we live. We are teenagers and we do what we have to do to get to where we want to go. We live, or at least, we try.

New-Shrinking Violet

I'm not stupid, I made it basically impossible for anyone I know to find this blog. So this is more of a note for future me but anyways,
I've always wanted to be famous, it's no secret. I read a book called 'Shrinking Violet' and well, you can look it up, I'm not going to explain it. In fact, why don't you read it? It's amazing. It was turned into a Disney movie called 'Radio Rebel' and trust me, Disney changed it a lot, I mean, they kind of had to, to make it more appropriate for kids, the book is way better though. Anyways, Shrinking Violet is going to be a new thing I'm doing, I'm basically going to pretend I'm on the radio and write stuff then post a song. Yay for living out my dreams, well, sort of.

Purge Away Your Stress

See that picture? Well, let me tell you just what it is...

That would be the first time I ever made myself throw up, and it was just a few minutes ago.

I know what you're thinking, but, actually, you're wrong. 

First, let me just say, while this is the first time I've made myself throw up, it's not the first time I've tried. I've attempted more than a few times, this is just the first time I've succeeded. All the other times, I did it because I felt fat, and I wanted to be skinny, so I tried to throw up. But, not this time.

This time, I did because I didn't know what else to do.

I read a book, it was called Nothing and it was by Robin Friedman. It was about a boy named Parker who was Bulimic. And, he didn't really do it to lose weight, he did it to release stress.

I have problems with my Dad, I've probably mentioned that before, and well, so did Parker.

A week or two ago my Dad gave us a tearful speech about how he's sorry for being so hard on us (I have two sisters) and how he want us to look up to him and see him as a role model so he said he was going to be better now.

And the whole time he was giving us that speech I was secretly rolling my eyes thinking that it was bullshit.

I was right.

I was at Games Night with my girlfriends and he picked me up, that was around 11:30. We got home and he started going crazy because he couldn't find this bag of giftcards he got for my grandmother (tomorrow is Mothers Day) and how it was worth a lot of money. He started blaming my mother and she got upset but we all started looking for it. One of my sisters found it and me and her and my mother were all screaming with happiness and we told my father and he yelled " I DON'T CARE, SOMEBODY MOVED IT, IT WASN'T WHERE I LEFT IT!" So my mother goes "Can't you just be happy that she found it?" and then they started yelling at each other and I ran downstairs, but not before screaming "THIS IS ANOTHER REASON WHY I'M NEVER GETTING MARRIED" And then my mother yelled back at me something about how that wasn't appropriate for me to say or I have no right to say that or something. Actually I do, it's called Freedom of Speech you stupid bitch. Anyways, I ran downstairs to my room crying, and then I walked into my bathroom and I wanted to cut, like I did a couple days before my dad gave us that teary speech (yes, he was the reason I cut myself, it had been nearly a year without cutting and he ruined it) but I willed myself not to.

I'm on the red right now and so I've been feeling a little bit nauseous, and also my parents fighting makes me feel like that, so, I stuck my fingers down my throat and I threw up while I cried.

And I'm not going to lie, when I was done, I felt a lot better. I felt like all the negative stuff was out of my system. I remembered a lot of the bad things that happened  to Parker in the book, his teeth were gray, the acid from the throw up hurt his throat, and other things, so I googled it. Instead of finding reasons why I shouldn't be bulimic. I found this, http://anamiachronicles.blogspot.ca/2009/02/ana-and-mia-tips-and-tricks.html . It's a blog post about tips and tricks on how to be Anorexic and Bulimic. I almost cried while reading that, half because it made me feel like shit, half because there's a freaking website that tells people how to be better Bulimics. It's a disease, Bulimia Nervosa is a disease that you can be diagnosed with. As easy as it would be for me to just throw up all the time, tonight was the first time I ever made myself throw up, and hopefully it will be the last.

Get Over Yourself

DO IT.

PLEASE.

I'M BEGGING YOU.

GET THE FREAKING FUCK OVER YOURSELF.

People these days. UGH. Honestly though, they need to get over themselves.

Everybody's so dramatic. This guy in my class, *cough, cough, MACKIE* is completely bonkers.

Basically, he had a girlfriend for like two weeks (maybe less) and she broke up with him and he's in complete full and total break-up syndrome mode. She broke up with him on FRIDAY. It's TUESDAY. And he's STILL upset. Why? Good question.

APPARENTLY, she's perfect, he would do ANYTHING for her, and he was in love with her and he's devastated that she broke up with him and he keeps the drumsticks she bought him when she went to Ottawa for four days (SHE WAS IN OTTAWA FOR ALMOST HALF OF THEIR "relationship") with him at ALL times.

I know all of this because we do these things in ELA called quick-writes and he read his out loud to the class and started crying and he was talking about her. Did I mention she's in grade 8? Anyways.

He's so over-dramatic, I mean, if they'd been dating for longer maybe I could see him being upset then. But they barely even dated, they didn't really go out anywhere, I'm not even sure if they actually kissed.

I can't even talk about this anymore, it's too annoying.

Just a note to say that any names I've used in any of my blog posts are not real. The people are real and once I come up with an alias for that person, if I mention them again in one of my blog posts, it'll be under the same alias.
This does not include when I talk about Celebrities or Book Characters.

Confessions

If I could change anything about my past, I know what I'd choose. It should probably be something like I'd change the first time I cut, I'd change getting into that fight with Kelly, it should be something really important. I'd change telling Zeke I liked him. Nothing's different between us now. It didn't really affect us, but, I'd still change it. I don't want him to know. I really don't.

 Just a note to say that any names I've used in any of my blog posts are not real. The people are real and once I come up with an alias for that person, if I mention them again in one of my blog posts, it'll be under the same alias.
This does not include when I talk about Celebrities or Book Characters.