Locked in the Janitor's Closet

So, how many movies/TV shows about high-school have you seen where someone doesn't get locked in the janitor's closet? Disney channel's Radio Rebel is a perfect example.

It must be in a rulebook. How to be a Bitch 101. Rule #1 - Find a nice girl and lock her in the janitor's closet.

Why does this happen? Simple.

Mean girl feels threatened by nice girl, mean girl locks nice girl in janitor's closet to sabotage something that is important to nice girl. 

Personally, although I technically should  be a freshman in high-school, (I'm in grade 9) I'm not. Why you ask? Because here, for some stupid unknown reason, high-school doesn't start until grade 10, so I will start high-school as a sophomore. 

ANYWAYS, I'm getting off topic. I was talking about closets. 

I personally have never seen a girl get locked in the janitor's closet, I've never got locked in it and I've never locked someone in it. I may not be in high-school but I do have friends that are and I'm pretty sure they'd agree.

It's just not real. Yeah, there are lots of really bitchy girls, but they're probably not going to lock you in a closet.

Movies about high-school are just SO unrealistic. I guess when I was younger I never really realized that. I thought people got locked in janitor's closets all the time.

The janitor's closet is just one example of how the way TV portrays high-school is unrealistic. Nobody hooks up in the boiler room, (although the bathroom is a common place for this, or so I've heard) nobody has a thing with one of the teachers, the really cool, cute, popular guy will most likely not fall in love with you, and, having a boyfriend isn't glamorous and wonderful AT ALL.

High-school isn't what you think it will be. I remember when I was little, I couldn't WAIT to go to high-school. Now I'm secretly hoping I'll get famous so I don't have to go.

The only thing I'm looking forward to about next year is that I don't have to take gym. We only need 1 gym credit to graduate so I'll take that in grade 11. 

I thought high-school was this amazing thing where I'd be the coolest, prettiest, smartest girl there and I'd have a super hot boyfriend and the best friends and it would all be perfect.

But it's no where near that at all. 

Nobody is "cool" we're all just people. There are tons of girls (and guys for that matter) who are WAY better looking than me. I'm not even the smartest in my junior high school, how will I be the smartest in my high-school? Reality is, I'm probably not going to get a boyfriend, and I'll have virgin lips forever. As for my friends, well, I don't really know. I guess I'll see when I get there. But what I do know is, high-school is gonna be no where near perfect. Just like being a teenager. It kind of sucks sometimes. That's just the way the world works.

But, I'll find ways to make it through. I always do.

If You Can Afford Me

NOTES - 3

RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4. Tag 5 friends, including me 5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. 6. Have Fun!


1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "ARE YOU OKAY?" YOU SAY:
U Can Have It All - JRDN


2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?:
Willing To Wait - Rihanna

(Actually, I don't like waiting AT ALL. But, I'm working on it.)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?:
My Youtube Song - Dave Days

(Well, I DO like youtubers ! And I like people who watch YouTube as well !)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?:
So Appalled - Kayne West ft. Jay-Z, Pusha T, Prynce Cy Hi, RZA & Swizz Beatz

(I don't know why but that made me LOL.) 

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?:
Government Hooker - Lady Gaga

(HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. no.)

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?:
Grove St. Party - Waka Flocka Flame ft. Kebo Gotti
(haha, awe yeah !)

7. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?:
Self Explanatory - Classified
(Meh.)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?:
Looking For Love - Diddy-Dirty Money ft. Usher

(haha, kind of.)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?:
I Can Only Imagine - David Guetta, Chris Brown & Lil Wayne
(How true, I don't have a best friend.)


10. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?:
Make it Stop - Rise Against

(I guess that makes sense, at some points in my life at least.)

11. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?:
Sexy Chick - David Guetta & Akon

(haha, you know it !)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?:
Hallelujah - Rufus Wainwright
(I find this amusing.)

13. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?:
Can't Fight This Feeling - Glee

(I guess that makes sense)

14. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?:
I'll Be Alright Without You - Journey

(Well, I guess everyone will be alright without me....)

15. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?:
 Naked - Dev ft. Enrique Iglesias
(LOL NO.)

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?:
Right Thru Me - Nicki Minaj
(Maaaaybe.)

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?:
I Just Had Sex - The Lonely Island & Akon
(OH GOD,ROFL, LMAO, I CAN 'T EVEN, HAHAHAH, CAN'T STOP LAUGHING !!!)

18. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?:
Sandy - John Travolta
(Well, apparently, I want Sandy.)

19. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?:
15 Minutes - The Yeah You's
(That doesn't make much sense, ohwell !)

20. WHAT DOES YOUR LOVE THINK ABOUT YOU?:
I Would Do Anything For You - Foster the People
(YESSSSSSSSSS ! Haha!)

21. WHAT IS THE TITLE OF THIS NOTE?
If You Can Afford Me - Katy Perry

The 3am Friend

I think I finally realized why.

Why I'm ALWAYS there for everyone even though they're hardly ever never there for me.

And what I just said is why. 

I know what it feels like. To want someone to be there for you, but no one ever is. 

So I'm that friend. The one you can call at 3 in the morning to cry to, because you know they'll listen. The one who'll show up at your door with romantic comedies and chocolate after you've been through a bad break-up. The one who'll send you a rose on Valentine's day, just so you can feel loved. The one who'll share her snack with you when you forgot your lunch, even if she herself hasn't eaten all day. The one who will listen to you vent about your problems for hours on end. The one who puts up with you talking about the same guy day after day after day. The one who is there for you, anytime, anyplace, no matter what. I'm that girl.

But, I don't have anybody who would do that for me.

Sometimes it makes me angry. Knowing that I'm always there for them but they don't care to return the favor.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I left. If I just stopped talking to them. Would they care? Would they miss me? Would they even notice? 

Everyone's always asking me questions. It's like, they just expect me to know the answer. And, I usually do. But, why? Why do they expect me to know everything? I don't! I don't know everything!

Do I not deserve a friend like that?

Is it really so much to ask? I just want a real, true, best friend.

I just want that friend, that I can call at 3am, knowing they'll pick up and listen.

You're Not Alone

I found this while reading one direction fan fiction. The girl who wrote this, Julianna, described how I feel perfectly, and I felt the need to post it on here, so I could remember it.

"You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting..."

Hey There Delilah

 NOTES - 2

Who do you like and Why?
- I like Cade. Why, you ask? Well, why is the sky blue?

Have you ever been in love? If yes, how many times, and how do you know it was love?
- Unrequited love, yes. Real love? I thought I was, but now I'm not so sure.

Longest relationship you’ve ever been in, and why did it end?
- Like, a week and a half. I'm not good at relationships, I don't trust anyone, and men are pigs.

Have you ever changed for someone, if yes, how?
- First off, let me just say, whatever you do, NEVER EVER EVER change for a guy. But, yes. I did. How? Oh god, here we go. My hair used to be kind of greasy and gross. I got a straightener and expensive shampoo's and other products to make it look nice. I used to dress really gothy and weird. I bought a new wardrobe full of cute clothes. I had glasses. I got contacts. I was depressed. I pretended to be happy. I was ugly. I transformed into someone who society would label as "pretty". But it wasn't enough. Nothing I can do, will ever be enough for him. For Zeke.

Pretend I’m you ex, what do you want to say to me?
- All those years ago, when you told me you loved me, were you lying Beck? Because you said the only girl you've ever loved was Shelly.

Have you ever been cheated on?
- Not that I know about.

Have you ever cheated?
- Never.

Would you date someone who’s known for cheating, if yes why?
- It depends. If I really fell for him, I'd give him a chance. Because, it's not me he cheated on, and everyone deserves a second chance.

What’s the most important part of a relationship?
- Love, obviously. Looking at that person and not only seeing someone who is your bf/gf, but, your best friend. You need to be comfortable around them if you're going to have a relationship.

Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
- Honestly, I have no clue.

When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?
-I wouldn't know yet.

How many people have you ever hooked up with?
- Zero.

What’s one thing you regret saying or not saying, doing or not doing in a previous relationship?
- Nothing.

What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
- Honestly, I believe in abstinence so, yeah.

Do you believe in the phrase, “Age is just a number?” Why or why not?
-I mean, it depends. If he/she is old enough to be your mother/father, then that's just creepy. Also, during the teen years, age does matter, it's a very big deal. Just because we're still growing up. When we get older, a couple years won't make a big difference.

Ps. Age is just a number and jail is just a room. HAHAHAH.

What about “Love at first sight”? Why or why not?
- No. Lust at first sight, yes. And lust can turn into love but, you need to truly get to know someone before you know if you're in love with them.

Turn on’s?
- Being called 'love' or 'darling'. It's weird, I know. British/Australian accents, flirting, play-fighting. A lot of things, actually, haha. And um, it kind of turns me on when guys swear, but, just the flirty kind, like "damn baby" not like "you're a fucking bitch". The whole "Jillian Greene and Marcus Brody" relationship thing is what I want to have with a guy. I don't want prince charming, I WANT FUCKING MARCUS BRODY. Well, maybe add a little Brent Greene to that, and you've got the perfect man.

Turn off’s?
-Smelling bad. Too many tattoo's/piercings, really long hair, cockiness, homophobia, being judgmental, as werid as this sounds, being nice all the time, I can't stand a guy who is super nice all the time to his girlfriend, like, dude, if I'm dating you, I obviously like you, just be yourself, don't be fake, you're allowed to get mad at me sometimes.

What do you consider a deal breaker?
- Dunno.

How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?
- You just know.

Are you currently in a relationship? If yes, for how long? If no, how long have you been single?
- No, been single since January 2010. And it's currently March 2012.

Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
- Yes. I'm extremely good friends with my ex, and I love him to death, like a brother though.

Do you think people should date their friends?
-I think, the best relationships start out as friendships.

How many relationships have you had?
-None. I had a, "you like me,I like you, we're going out." kind of thing, but that doesn't really count.

Do you think love can last forever?
-Maybe.

Do you believe love can conquer all things?
- Maybe.

Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?
- No. I don't give a damn what my parents think.

If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
- Don't do it honey.

Do you think long distance relationships can work? Why or why not?
-Yes. If you really love somebody, they're worth it. If you're not willing to do anything and everything for them, to be with them, it's not really worth it. When people say, how can long distance relationships work? I always say, how can they not? But, you do have to be a trusting person, if you don't fully trust your partner, it won't work out.

What do you notice first about another person of the opposite sex?
- I know it's shallow but, if he's not wearing a shirt, then I look at his chest/stomach area. I love abs, okay? I admit it. If he is then face, I love nice eyes/smiles.

Do gay, lesbians, bisexuals or transgender people bother you?
- No, I have a lot of gay/bi friends. And I have no problem with transgender's. I mean, as much as I complain about being a girl, if I woke up and I was a boy, I'd want to become a girl again. So I understand why transgenders are transgenders.

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